… and this time I really mean it.
No, really, I’m going to do this.
Okay, I’ve been saying this for how long?
Since I finished the draft of the memoir and am now giving it to the editor, that means I have to let go of it.
I’m not very good at letting go. I have this desire to just check it over one more time and tweak just a couple more things. But, that is counter-productive, so I know I just have to let it go and walk away, until she gives it back.
So in the meantime I’m supposed to be writing something else, right? I’ve told you all I would, I told myself I would. So what is the problem?
The most common kind of advice given is to write every day. Even if it is crappy writing, do it anyway, make writing a habit. You know, from the way I talk you would think I don’t like writing at all, I make it sound so hard and like such mundane work.
Hard to explain, but I love writing. It I think is just this weird thing to me now, now that I want to call myself a writer I have somehow attached all these rules and things to writing, like that it has to be writing for a purpose, you know, either a book or an article, to sell, something worthwhile that others would want to read. My biggest rule seems to be that it has to be good. Why? No clue. Type A personality perhaps?
In reality, I kind of lost sight of what I loved about writing to begin with, just writing, off the top of my head, for no other reason than I enjoyed it.
So that is what I want to get back to, because I do think that I have the ability to write things that others might want to read, I just gotta stop thinking that is the only writing I can do. I can do any kind I want, even lousy writing just for the fun of it.
So, this is the plan….
In case you are wondering, do you realize how I am using you all as my conscience? I figure if I tell you what my plan is then I become somewhat accountable to all of you to do what I said I was going to do. Not that any of you really cares whether I follow through or not, but humor me here, pretend as if you do.
So anyway, back to the plan …
My computer has this cute little thing where I get a little prompt in the bottom right corner of my computer screen telling me when I have an e-mail. Definitely have to keep that turned off every morning. If I allow myself to check one e-mail I already know it will then become clicking the link to look at one news story or someone’s blog and then before you know it I have spent my entire scheduled writing time, not writing but goofing off on the internet.
So be forewarned, do not call between seven and nine in the morning, I am writing. I’ll call you back when I get home from the gym, or maybe in the car on the way to the gym.
If I reply to an e-mail from you and I have done so between seven and nine you have my permission to whack me on the back of the head.
Do we have a deal? Okay, so I have made myself accountable to you for doing what I said I would do, anything I can do to help you? I have nothing but time …. well except for between seven and nine in the morning.